I'm Getting Married...

and am now an emotional basket case. I never once considered that getting engaged and planning a wedding would bring up so many emotions in me. I told one friend that I'm now making decisions on the wedding based on whether they make me cry or not. For instance, if a song makes me cry it must be in the wedding.

I suppose it is understandable to have such a wide range of emotions. I have spent the last 34 years under my parents' wings. I haven't lived with them since I was 17, but I have spent every birthday and Christmas and major event in our lives with them. Now along comes this man with his own family that has its own way of doing things. The thought of meshing our two lives together is incredibly exciting and makes me happy. But at the same time it is also very scary and a bit sad to consider the compromises each of us will have to make.

Also, the thought of having a boy in the house all the time is a bit overwhelming! I have lived mostly alone (with the exception of a roommate here and there) for half my life. Now I have to share my space with a boy. He is going to want a portion of my closet, the toilet seat up and full control of my remote control. Basically life is not going to be all about me anymore. I guess that could be a good thing. :-)

So there is a glimpse of some of the crazy emotions I am being overcome with on a daily basis. I am almost always happy and in a state of disbelief that Javier finally asked me to marry him and that day is coming soon! Yet, when I'm not looking these other emotions sneak up on me...fear, selfishness, sadness. I'm going to assume that these are normal for any bride.

Still Here!

My blog is still here!!! It never gave up on me even though I forgot it existed. ;-) This is now attempt number 4,239,234,897,923,777 at trying to blog more consistently.

Sorry

I realized recently that there are a few more people reading my blog (when I update it) than I thought. So, this is my initial effort to blog more. The biggest hurdle I have to blogging is that the friends I am living with still live in the stone ages. No phone, no cable, no internet. I must rely on my work computer and random free wifi connections. Therefore, I cannot make any firm commitments to blogging twice a day or anything like that. However, I am going to make an effort to blog a bit more. :-)

Training Purgatory

That is where I currently am...in training in Norman, OK. There is a slight possibility that the union of the company I work for may strike. So to prepare for that all management employees have been assigned a "strike assignment". If there is a strike I will have the privilege of becoming a collections agent. I won't complain about that though because some people in our department have jobs where they have to learn to climb telephone poles. Thank you Jesus for not putting me in that position!

So here I am in Oklahoma. We (one of my co-workers and I) checked into our hotel last night and I promptly discovered that my toilet wouldn't flush, which meant I had to re-pack my belongings and change rooms. Other than that the hotel is very nice. I have a huge king size bed, cable tv, free internet access and a very good complimentary breakfast. Better than home. ;-)

The training is quite frankly terrible. We spent a good portion of the day trying to work out kinks with the log ins we are supposed to use for the systems. The other portion of the day was spent taking turns reading the training manual out loud. What is especially annoying is that we have some hourly management people in the class so the trainer is extremely strict on the time. We spent the last 20 minutes of the day sitting around waiting for 5pm instead of being allowed to just go home.

I know I shouldn't complain. At least I have a job right? So I will try to make the best out of this.

Week One

Week one went really well. I focused on cutting processed foods out of my diet. I was very successful with that. Although now I am eating a Healthy Choice frozen meal for lunch, but that was the quickest thing to throw together since I was running late this morning. Needless to say, cutting out processed foods makes food preparation a lot longer.

I did lose 1.8 pounds this week. Respectable considering that as of Friday I had not lost any weight. This week I am focusing on adding more exercise. We'll see how that goes.

Victorious

It is the end of the day and I did not listen to the singing candy bars from the break room. Score one for Amy. :-) If you are confused please read my previous post.

Why so hungry?

I've been debating whether I should post about this subject or not. Primarily because if I fail I don't want people to know. But, since my counter shows not a lot of people read this then why not!

The household I am living in started a 90 day weight loss challenge on January 4. My goal is to lose 30 pounds in 90 days. A bit aggressive, but doable in my opinion. I started this week insanely optimistic. I went to the grocery store for all of the healthy foods and little containers to take all of that food to work with me. One thing I am trying to accomplish is getting over my sugar addiction. I am an absolute sugar addict! If it has sugar in it I will eat it.

How have I done? Fabulous! I have not eaten one unhealthy thing this week. I am drinking a lot more water and I have managed to squeeze in 2 workouts so far. I have had NO sugar. Major accomplishment for me.

This morning I decided to weigh a couple of days early. The results? I have not lost a single pound. Not even a tenth of a pound. I weigh EXACTLY the same as I weighed on Sunday. My first reaction was to find the nearest box of chocolate. Fortunately there is no chocolate in the house right now. I have not given in to that initial reaction yet and continue to stay on track. However, the chocolate bars from the vending machine are currently singing out for me to eat them every time I pass the break room. I don't quite understand how I haven't lost any weight, but I am going to keep at it and not lose my resolve.

So Sad

I just returned from an 11 day trip to Missouri to spend Christmas with my family. I planned to have lots of pictures to show off on this blog upon my return. Sadly, with only two days left in my vacation I accidentally deleted every single picture from my digital camera. Christmas 2008? Gone. Christmas with my Texas family? Gone. Pictures from a ministry outreach? Gone. Pictures from the church family Christmas? Gone. I was in shock for quite some time. Now I'm just sad that I cannot share any of these pictures with the approximately three people that read my blog.

Despite the Digital Camera Crisis of '08, Christmas with the family was fabulous. Lots of people, lots of gifts and lots of food. Speaking of food...I'm hungry. I may post about why soon.